Racing to camp for the kids. Preparing curriculum for next year. Helping to plan a wedding. Planning a major life event. Moving family out of state. One thing right after the other. Good things. All good things.
And yet, I’m overwhelmed. Feels like it’s coming to fast. No time to breathe. Can’t get it all done. Feels like I’m barely hanging on.
And then I realize why. I’m trying to do it all in my own power. Not resting in the peace and power of God.
I promised myself. This time would be different. Workout gear. Check. Water bottle. Check. Walking shoes. Check. I’m ready to get at it. And I begin, daily. For a few weeks, even months, things go great. But then something happens. It could be the kids, work, hubby, I get sick, you name it – there’s always something. And I let it throw me off course. It could be a week. It could be a month. It’s a vicious cycle that seems to require too much time and effort to correct. I’ve got too much going on to deal with it. However, instead of repeating the cycle, this time I’ve chosen to make decisions enabling me to be healthy the smart way. The right way.
Some days I think I’m drowning. I get that feeling … everything seems blurry, all running together, and all I can try to do is survive and head for shore (in this case, rest). I occasionally would love to have a camera follow me around all day. Not because I want to be a reality star – but because I don’t think people would believe how crazy my days are. From running around for my boys, special projects, meetings, article deadlines and interviews, helping hubby and an evening event, then sprinkle in a once in a lifetime opportunity for the kids – it’s all I can do at this point to type and think straight.
Especially at times like these I am thankful for God’s grace. I am thankful for His peace. And I am thankful for His provision. There is no way I could live my life on my own strength – honestly, I don’t think anybody could! (My life is not for the faint of heart, lol). But eventually, things will slow down, I will get the rest I need, and I’ll wonder how I made it through. Only by the grace of God . . . as He carries me to shore.
Yup, it’s happened. I was told by teachers it was coming. The long months without a break start making you a little tired … and a little crazy. I don’t think I can hold out until Thanksgiving… it’s time for a break right now. I’ve decided to act accordingly in the following ways …
1. Self-imposed teachers workday. I’ll be working from my bed, pressing snooze, thank you very much.
2. A day of student responsibility. Show me how much you can get done on your own. That will either be fun to see or a mess to clean up, lol.
3. A play day. The only things allowed are reading, art, music and science (that one is a favorite of his, so yes, it would be part of play day).
I think if I can pull these off next week, I’ll be able to pull through until the holidays. We’ll see. Stay tuned….
1. Read a good book I’ve waited months to get to
3. Flip through a fun magazine
5. Watch a favorite TV show
7. Take a long bubble bath
8. Have a day to actually do these things.
Oh well … I’ll keep my list stored … For One Day ….