I’ve tried to open doors for years. Freelance writing, production work, speaking requests, teaching opportunities. I’ve searched. I’ve prayed. I’ve hustled. And all of those things are good. And necessary. But I am finally … finally … seeing things come together. To an outsider, it would seem like all of these great opportunities were offered overnight. Ha! The truth is I decided to stop stressing, worrying and trying to force things to happen. I calmed down. And decided to let them fall into my lap.
I’ve decide to trust God to lead me in the direction He wants me to go. I’ve decided that putting unnecessary stress and pressure on myself, is just that . . . unnecessary. And I’ve decided that some of those great opportunities that I missed … simply were not for me or it wasn’t the right timing. And it feels so good to feel God’s peace when I’m in the right flow!
Do I still make mistakes? Come on. Of course. Do I still get anxious? Occasionally. Am I excited about what God has in store? You better believe it. Let Him place it right into my lap
I recently received an interesting … and potentially very lucrative … offer. It appealed to me for a variety of reasons. First, it involved organizing and structuring an event, something at which I excel. It offered the chance to pay quite well. It would allow me the opportunity to be in charge, and orchestrate the flow of the event. And it involved lots of famous people. While I’m not the type to get star-struck, the last point made it sound fun and like a great opportunity to network. The person offering the job had the utmost confidence in my abilities to pull it off successfully. He knew I could do it; I knew I could do it; so why didn’t I do it?
Once I stepped away from the glitz and glamour of the offer, I looked at the reality of it. The time needed to make it a success would be practically 24/7, non-stop, due to the short time frame to accomplish the task. It would be a constant grind, and I’d have very little assistance. These two factors alone, however, didn’t deter me. I am definitely no stranger to hard work, and actually thrive under deadline pressure. But the final reason caused me to completely step away. This opportunity, beautifully packaged and wrapped with a bow, was a distraction.
As I study and pray more and more about my purpose, and fulfilling it with passion and determination, I realize I can’t take side journeys that may lead me down the wrong path. Now there’s nothing at all wrong with making additional money using your talents. There’s also nothing wrong with accepting a job that may not be exactly what you want to do – especially in a short-term capacity. However, this job seemed to have all the makings of getting me caught up for longer than I wanted to be, doing more than I wanted to do, at this time. So I had to pass.
Maybe the chance will come back around and I’ll be ready. Or maybe its sole purpose was to see if money would be my guide. But money isn’t everything. Pursuing my purpose, is.
When does an opportunity become a burden?
I was wrestling with myself over this question. I’d been given an opportunity that seemed perfect for me … doing what I love, writing, for an organization whose interests are perfectly in line with my own. I really enjoyed it … the topics, the interviews, the work itself. And plus I got paid to do it. For the moment, life didn’t get any better on that front.
Then … the pace slowed down. My calls weren’t being returned. They weren’t answering emails. It was disappointing and frustrating. I couldn’t figure out what I’d done. It was something I wanted to do, and in some respects needed to do. But the consistency had vanished, and confusion had entered in. And I was stuck.
This “opportunity” was causing me stress, anxiety, I wasn’t being respected, and even getting paid was becoming an issue. I was sad … I didn’t want to let go, but had to. It had, in essence, become a burden.
Time to turn it loose ….