When I started this journey over a year ago, it was daunting, to say the least. I really wasn’t sure I could do it. I mean, the thought of the responsibility for all that my children would learn, being in my hands, overwhelmed me. Good teachers, teachers who care and love and have a passion for helping children, are amazing and deserve our respect and accolades! I hardly thought I could measure up.
Then a funny thing happened. I realized I didn’t have to measure up. It’s not a competition. Instead of trying to teach in a certain way or be like that amazing teacher, I had to put my trust in God to navigate this journey. Now that doesn’t mean I don’t have to do my research, lesson plans, preparations, field trips, grading papers, science experiments (I’m getting tired just reading that J). Rather, it means if God has trusted me with this noble calling, then He will equip me to do it.
So in spite of myself, my limitations, my shortcomings, I homeschool. I homeschool because I am putting more than academics into my boys. We are studying Godly character. We have a lot of life lessons – we study how to prioritize time, how to make decisions on what is most important and why. When we’re all tired and no one can focus, we can take a break and go play outside, or head out the door to a field trip. We play together, talk together, have lunch together, think together and dream together. We study what intrigues them, and have time to research fun activities. We take vacations when the beaches are empty, and do science experiments at night. We stay at the free university called the library for hours, or make grocery shopping a time of math and critical thinking – why should we get milk instead of chips? We have afternoon cuddles and wonderful story times of reading. It is an amazing adventure.
It’s not easy. It’s not convenient. But I love it, and I’m so thankful for homeschool.
The older (and wiser) I get, the more my perspective changes. I get what really matters. It’s funny, when I was younger I was all about climbing that career ladder, getting my big break, being on my hustle and my grind, and making it happen – whatever it was. I still have goals and aspirations. Now, however, they take a back seat to things a thriving career, and a networking connection can’t get for you. In honor of the Thanksgiving holiday I was so blessed to celebrate with friends and family dear to me, here’s a look at some things I’m thankful for.
- A husband who cooks, cleans, is humble, and selfless. He’s an amazing daddy and an incredible marriage partner.
- Two beautiful boys who are my heartbeat. Their smiles, their unconditional love, and their innocent acceptance make me want to continue to do all that I can for them. My heart melts when they laugh.
- Parents who are living, love me and are an integral part of my life.
- Siblings who are now dear friends.
- Inlaws who I genuinely love and appreciate.
- The privilege to homeschool my boys. Yes, I am sacrificing much, but boy, is it worth the sacrifice.
- A place to lay my head, clothes to put on each day and food to eat. Truly things we usually take for granted. Truly things to be grateful for.
- My health. So very precious to be healthy.
- Joy! The joy of the Lord is truly my strength.
- Peace of mind. I could write for days on this one ……
- And last, but certainly not least, the love of Jesus that permeates my being and makes me who I am today.
I am grateful.
I Googled myself. Have you ever done that? I write a number of articles, have a few IMDB credits to my name, and just wanted to see what popped up. It was interesting. I found a few places where my writing has been posted that I wasn’t aware of. I found intriguing comments that I’d missed on some of my writings. And I was able to take a nostalgic stroll down memory lane.
As I read through an online summary of my professional and public life, I realized how much was missing. While it highlighted some achievements, it didn’t express how important my family is to me. It didn’t talk about the importance of my faith in God and love for Jesus. It failed to communicate my desire to put people above things. It didn’t capture the essence of me … and what I want others to remember me for.
And it helped put some things in perspective. It feels great to be recognized for good work, or professional achievements. I smiled at the number of articles that came up with my name attached. I felt accomplished. However, none of that matters if my heart for God, devotion to family and love for people isn’t seen. When I strip it all away, that’s what really matters. And that’s what I want to be remembered for.
How will people remember you?
I was busy. Who isn’t, you’re probably saying? But I was the type of busy that it truly took too much time and energy to consider taking a rest. Between working a job, freelance work, homeschooling my kids, volunteer work, and being a wife and mother, I was stretched way too thin. And signs of wear were starting to show. I felt in a constant state of stress. I was barely sleeping at night, and snapping at my family during the day. There just weren’t enough hours to get everything done. I was sinking. Fast.
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Thank you, honey, for all you do.
I’ve realized in 14 years of marriage ….
– That “happy” doesn’t always mean “convenient.
– That you have to share even when you don’t feel like it.
– That considering someone else limits your choices.
– That there’s always someone to answer to.
But more importantly, I’ve realized …
– Being inconvenienced to make you happy, makes me happy.
– That the best part of sharing is having someone to share with.
– That choices to strengthen us and our family far outweigh any other choices I’d want to make.
– That I’m thankful that there is always someone to answer to.
Thank God for you, hubby.
I wish I could freeze the feeling of …
A 4 year old hugging me around the neck
How I feel when my son says “yes ma’am” and shows respect.
My joy at hearing my children laugh,
The relaxation of a soothing warm bath.
A tender touch, my husband’s kiss
A first day of school I dare not miss.
Just a few family moments on my mind tonight … feelings I wish I could freeze and feel forever.